This piece was written as a letter — from who I am now, to who I was during a severe depressive episode related to bipolar disorder. I’m sharing it not as recovery content, nor as proof of resilience, but as an act of honesty. There are parts of mental illness that don’t translate well into … Continue reading A Letter From the Future You Didn’t Believe In
This is my 44th time sitting down to write here. Not because I always felt clear or confident, but because returning — again and again — has become part of how I grow. Living with bipolar has shaped how I listen to myself, how I reflect, and how honestly I show up on the page. … Continue reading Continuance
“Not all those who wander are lost.”― J.R.R. Tolkien, The Fellowship of the Ring Life ruled by medication, I know I am not the only one but it’s a hard pill to swallow (pun intended). To know your moods can only be controlled by some chemicals is difficult. You have to give up control and recognise its … Continue reading Contaminated
“The human capacity for burden is like bamboo – far more flexible than you’d ever believe at first glance” – Jodi Picoult To the moon, JNR CHOI - the song I listened to a lot when I was in my mania, literally felt like I was just sitting there alone talking to the moon. I … Continue reading Micro management
“Believe in yourself. You are braver than you think, more talented than you know, and capable of more than you imagine.” - Roy T Bennett Brave is something I have been called many times over and its honestly something I never thought I would be called (no offence to those who called me that). I … Continue reading Valorous
As the World becomes still, I begin to travel into a territory extremely active Navigating Anyone else having the most random dreams? I feel as though my imagination is trying to break through this ‘new normal’ to get back to this life that was deemed as ‘full’. It seems as if my subconscious is trying … Continue reading A Series of Pandemic feelings – Wilderness
It started with constantly checking the news, refresh…refresh…refresh…any, new, news? Anything more of this virus; I, once thought was so far away and now was on the doorstep. It started as a blanket ‘oh only 3% of the people who contract it, die, it’s not a big deal!’. Well it has become a big deal, … Continue reading Frazzled
"Little by little, one travels far." ~J. R. R. Tolkien When it feels like its all passing by... Cemented I am feeling stuck again, maybe it’s after the year in which my whole life was taken up by hens, weddings and babies? I found it one of the most joyful times of my life but … Continue reading Genesis
“You’re always with yourself, so you might as well enjoy the company.” ~ Diane Von Furstenburg The times you feel like you are constantly being judged #judgement #scrutiny #opinions Figuring out how to stop being someone, who needs to be validated by other people, is something I am constantly struggling with. I have always wondered … Continue reading Nurture
“It's not what we do once in a while that shapes our lives. It's what we do consistently.”~ Anthony Robbins I hate those 30 seconds when you wake up and don’t remember your turmoil’s. When for that fleeting moment everything is ‘normal’ and then, quite painfully you are jolted back to reality…the feeling of coming down … Continue reading Descent
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