This piece was written as a letter — from who I am now, to who I was during a severe depressive episode related to bipolar disorder. I’m sharing it not as recovery content, nor as proof of resilience, but as an act of honesty. There are parts of mental illness that don’t translate well into … Continue reading A Letter From the Future You Didn’t Believe In
This is my 44th time sitting down to write here. Not because I always felt clear or confident, but because returning — again and again — has become part of how I grow. Living with bipolar has shaped how I listen to myself, how I reflect, and how honestly I show up on the page. … Continue reading Continuance
“Not all those who wander are lost.”― J.R.R. Tolkien, The Fellowship of the Ring Life ruled by medication, I know I am not the only one but it’s a hard pill to swallow (pun intended). To know your moods can only be controlled by some chemicals is difficult. You have to give up control and recognise its … Continue reading Contaminated
"If you’re offered a seat on a rocket ship, don’t ask what seat! Just get on!” – Sheryl Sandberg Now I have explained a ‘high’, I can only really go into the low. I have already alluded to the low I had last time around. It was after my second intense psychosis come mania. My … Continue reading Subjugated
“The human capacity for burden is like bamboo – far more flexible than you’d ever believe at first glance” – Jodi Picoult To the moon, JNR CHOI - the song I listened to a lot when I was in my mania, literally felt like I was just sitting there alone talking to the moon. I … Continue reading Micro management
“Believe in yourself. You are braver than you think, more talented than you know, and capable of more than you imagine.” - Roy T Bennett Brave is something I have been called many times over and its honestly something I never thought I would be called (no offence to those who called me that). I … Continue reading Valorous
“Daring greatly means the courage to be vulnerable. It means to show up and be seen. To ask for what you need. To talk about how you’re feeling. To have the hard conversations.” - Brene Brown I have always stood by the saying that, sharing your story means that others may not feel alone and … Continue reading Vulnerability
"Everyone wants to live on top of the mountain, but all the happiness and growth occurs while you’re climbing it" ~ Andy Rooney I suppose I fell into this mindset that someone else will save me I felt as if I was constantly working to better myself, learning from my mistakes and trying to understand … Continue reading Discernment
A new store, where clothing is made to embrace feelings
As the World becomes still, I begin to travel into a territory extremely active Navigating Anyone else having the most random dreams? I feel as though my imagination is trying to break through this ‘new normal’ to get back to this life that was deemed as ‘full’. It seems as if my subconscious is trying … Continue reading A Series of Pandemic feelings – Wilderness
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