This piece was written as a letter — from who I am now, to who I was during a severe depressive episode related to bipolar disorder. I’m sharing it not as recovery content, nor as proof of resilience, but as an act of honesty. There are parts of mental illness that don’t translate well into … Continue reading A Letter From the Future You Didn’t Believe In
This is my 44th time sitting down to write here. Not because I always felt clear or confident, but because returning — again and again — has become part of how I grow. Living with bipolar has shaped how I listen to myself, how I reflect, and how honestly I show up on the page. … Continue reading Continuance
"What I really do when I write is follow myself, and I'm doing it right now: I'm following myself without knowing what it will lead me to. Sometimes following myself is so hard. Because of following something that's still so nebulous. Sometimes I end up stopping." — Clarice Lispector It’s funny, I had a dream that I … Continue reading Nebulous
“Not all those who wander are lost.”― J.R.R. Tolkien, The Fellowship of the Ring Life ruled by medication, I know I am not the only one but it’s a hard pill to swallow (pun intended). To know your moods can only be controlled by some chemicals is difficult. You have to give up control and recognise its … Continue reading Contaminated
"If you’re offered a seat on a rocket ship, don’t ask what seat! Just get on!” – Sheryl Sandberg Now I have explained a ‘high’, I can only really go into the low. I have already alluded to the low I had last time around. It was after my second intense psychosis come mania. My … Continue reading Subjugated
“The human capacity for burden is like bamboo – far more flexible than you’d ever believe at first glance” – Jodi Picoult To the moon, JNR CHOI - the song I listened to a lot when I was in my mania, literally felt like I was just sitting there alone talking to the moon. I … Continue reading Micro management
“Believe in yourself. You are braver than you think, more talented than you know, and capable of more than you imagine.” - Roy T Bennett Brave is something I have been called many times over and its honestly something I never thought I would be called (no offence to those who called me that). I … Continue reading Valorous
A new store, where clothing is made to embrace feelings
“The One Light is the light in all bodies.”ਏਕਾ ਜੋਤਿ ਜੋਤਿ ਹੈ ਸਰੀਰਾ ॥ Let’s #neverforget1984 but for the moment #blacklivesmatter is where our focus needs to be. Uncomfortable I wondered why I felt uncomfortable putting up an orange square on my Instagram stories. It’s because I felt like it was doing the same, … Continue reading Unify
As the World becomes still, I begin to travel into a territory extremely active Navigating Anyone else having the most random dreams? I feel as though my imagination is trying to break through this ‘new normal’ to get back to this life that was deemed as ‘full’. It seems as if my subconscious is trying … Continue reading A Series of Pandemic feelings – Wilderness
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