"What I really do when I write is follow myself, and I'm doing it right now: I'm following myself without knowing what it will lead me to. Sometimes following myself is so hard. Because of following something that's still so nebulous. Sometimes I end up stopping." — Clarice Lispector It’s funny, I had a dream that I … Continue reading Nebulous
“Not all those who wander are lost.”― J.R.R. Tolkien, The Fellowship of the Ring Life ruled by medication, I know I am not the only one but it’s a hard pill to swallow (pun intended). To know your moods can only be controlled by some chemicals is difficult. You have to give up control and recognise its … Continue reading Contaminated
"If you’re offered a seat on a rocket ship, don’t ask what seat! Just get on!” – Sheryl Sandberg Now I have explained a ‘high’, I can only really go into the low. I have already alluded to the low I had last time around. It was after my second intense psychosis come mania. My … Continue reading Subjugated
“The human capacity for burden is like bamboo – far more flexible than you’d ever believe at first glance” – Jodi Picoult To the moon, JNR CHOI - the song I listened to a lot when I was in my mania, literally felt like I was just sitting there alone talking to the moon. I … Continue reading Micro management
“Believe in yourself. You are braver than you think, more talented than you know, and capable of more than you imagine.” - Roy T Bennett Brave is something I have been called many times over and its honestly something I never thought I would be called (no offence to those who called me that). I … Continue reading Valorous
“The purpose of life is to live it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly and without fear for newer and richer experience.” - Eleanor Roosevelt I have divulged before that I knew of some highs and lows through my life but nothing prepared me for January 2021, there had been some … Continue reading Unchartered
“If we had no winter, the spring would not be so pleasant: if we did not sometimes taste of adversity, prosperity would not be so welcome." - Anne Bradstreet Coachella, a festival I had been dreaming of going to for years, especially since I knew The Weeknd would be playing. Imagine this, months of planning a … Continue reading Trice
“If I am not for myself, who will be for me? But if I am only for myself, what am I? And if not now, when?" - Hillel Not only does your world get turned upside down when you are diagnosed with a serious mental illness, there are so many other things that need to … Continue reading Modifications
“Daring greatly means the courage to be vulnerable. It means to show up and be seen. To ask for what you need. To talk about how you’re feeling. To have the hard conversations.” - Brene Brown I have always stood by the saying that, sharing your story means that others may not feel alone and … Continue reading Vulnerability
"Everyone wants to live on top of the mountain, but all the happiness and growth occurs while you’re climbing it" ~ Andy Rooney I suppose I fell into this mindset that someone else will save me I felt as if I was constantly working to better myself, learning from my mistakes and trying to understand … Continue reading Discernment
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